Well, it’s been a very long and eventful year. Things are coming to an end now and I am grateful for that. We accomplished a lot this year and had a lot of struggles, all worthwile and leading to something better.
The year began with snow and lovely friends staying with us. Then the incredible gift of the horse I love, Jerry. I will always remember the moment they told me I could have him. I never expected that. That completely changed my life. It seems like it was much longer than a year ago. Paul traded in his Z4 for the M3 and I spent five days a week spending time with Jerry, training him, walking with him, loving him, and trying out saddles. The year was filled with visiting family, seeing friends – from childhood best friends to new friends I can truely call blessings, so many wonderful people I will never forget.
My Grandmother on my fathers side passed away this year and I feel a sorroful memory for the struggles she had to go through. I will remember her creativity and her constant strive for making things better. There were a lot of things she taught me about myself, and things I still am learning to understand.
Paul and I reached our peak of worldly gains this year I think, ending it off barely making the bills, due to some changes in work arrangements. Regardless, we are happier than ever and are coming through fine. Things will get better in that area and I am not worried.
The end of this year has been all about repainting, organizing, and getting rid of stuff. It feels wonderfuly freeing to simplify. We had a community garage sale that started the quest to clean out our storage. We’ve taken truckloads and carloads of stuff to the local animal shelter thrift store. We packed up the non-essentials which Paul is hauling out to our place in Missouri now and I’m realizing how little I actually need. I remember when I used to travel with friends with nothing but a sleeping bag and some clothes. I got to the point where I really wanted a pillow, such a luxery! As Bettina says, it all starts with the pillow, then you need a bed, and a house to put it in. It all gets very complicated from there. Haha! But really it doesn’t need to be complicated. I remember my youthful travels with nothing but pockets full of faith and I know am always ok as I always have been. I joyfully take a step into the unknown, knowing only that I will be carried through each moment and taken care of. These things I see now are temporary, and my peace lies in letting go of the past, not fearing the future, and giving all to the present in each new moment. This is me welcoming the New Year and a new world of unimagined posibilites.
